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One year ago last month I had a very bad breakdown and was put on anti-anxiety/anti-depression meds. I went through 3 different meds and nothing helped so I stopped taking pills and stopped seeing a therapist. I’ve been on and off depressed since my early teens. I’m talking very very sad for a person so young. I’ve also been in and out of therapy since age 9. Just recently I’ve started getting overwhelmingly sad again, but I’ve also noticed I am outragously angry (at very small insignificant things). My previous question was why. Two people responded saying they have been through this and have bipolar disorder. I don’t know all of the symptoms of bipolar and am not too familiar with it but I’m wondering if anyone thinks I might have this. Over the last few weeks I’ve seen severe changes in mood, appetite, and sleeping habits. I cry for no reason… sometimes for hours. I’m extremely angry in general. I go from high to low in the snap of a finger. Help?

I am not sure if im bipolar or what but ive been reading about it kind of obsessively for a while because i cant seem to find out for sure what is wrong. Heres my symptoms:
Feeling deppressed/ suicidal at worst points
Feeling really anti social and getting anxiety really bad
Having wierd triggers to bad feelings for example being in a dark lit florescent room like a resuraunt at night, causes tenseness to the point of twitching and almost not beaing able to talk.
having really big varying outlooks on life like one day I will be praying and trusting god will help me and then the next i just cant decide if i hate him or if I even think he exists.
I get hallucinations, not like seeing figures or hearing voices but like little distortions of reality like seeing things move around hearing a ringing noise in one of my eyes, seeing colors change and ect.
I also get a wierd ocurrance where it seems like my frames of vision are not getting all the way erased from my head and leaving a mixed up picture in front of my eyes.
I also suffer from depersonalization and when its really bad derealization and also an all around really spaced out feeling wich has been affecting me my entire life and has been brought up by teachers from the kindergarten age although the other symptoms are more recent gradually building over the last about 2 years. (Im a 16 year old guy in high school if it matters) This is really affecting my life bad, I am messing up relationships, my grades are horrible because I cant concentrate and cant use organized thinking for some reason and feel like sleeping almost all day with short periods of energy. The crazier symptoms normally occur when Im alone though. I have been to a doctor and he said I have deppression and anxiety, put me on lexapro, I took it for a month at the lowest doseage and it made me feel like shit. I have have many stressors in my like being constantly bullied and laughed at because of how I looked back in middle school and have smoked weed alot and tried salvia once which was a bad idea but i wont go into that. Just so you guys know I quit all drugs, so I dont get a bunch of anti drug rants lol Sorry about the random ramble about my mental state but I just want to know what is wrong with me! Any comments are appreciated. Thanks.

I have had very high times and low times in my mood lately.
Like a cruel roller-coaster.
My self-esteem seems to be being ripped apart by this because for a week I’m beautiful and for a month I am a swamp-like creature.
I also have a ton more energy than normal, and can come up with better ideas, too.
I’m really happy, but also very mad; easily irritated.
During these time I’m also very social, interested in people, which is strange because I’m pretty much anti-social.
I also have really strange habits, and because of all this my school, and family-life is affected.
(habits:saying rude things, biting my fingers, yelling at people who aren’t even talking to me, being very impulsive, daydreaming so much I can barely concentrate on real life)
I’m 90% sure I am at the very least Bipolar II.
Anyway;
I’ve read up on this; taken a few scientifically reviewed tests and they all say:
Moderate to Severe Mania/Depression very likely;
Beneficial to get screened.
But the problem is my parents will not get me screened,or take me to a therapist and are very-anti drug. So I’m left with nothing because my parents are still my care-takers.
School is out now, so I can’t talk to a counselor there.
My parents believe that mental illnesses occur from terrible situations and abuse, so I’m just perfectly fine because I haven’t been abused.
But the funny thing is from the moment I was born I’ve had more than my fair share of traumatic experiences for my age; (13 surgeries due to facial defect, loss of two siblings, institutionalization e.e)

I just feel like I’m stuck.
What should I do?

Lately I had a Psychotic episode. I completely lost sense of reality, I felt different to everyone else and felt like I was being watched and people where out to get me, I was scared and I could not control my own thoughts, I have a voice in my head which is not mine, it comments all the time on what I am doing but I don’t control it, I think about things I don’t want to, and I am scared to make eye contact with people because I feel like they can read my mind.

I used to think that the Devil put the thoughts in my head, I feel like the world is against me and I see shadows running along walls and I believe that Ghosts are following me, never letting me rest, they’re always there. I constantly have to be on the lookout for Ghosts, and sometimes I hear people shouting my name, but nobody is there.

I never smile and I react to things inn appropriately and sometimes I am seen as cold, because I laugh at things when I get nervous, and if anyone looks at me in the slightest way I get really paranoid and think they want to kill me, I suffer from Severe Anxiety and was recently detained and was in a Mental Hospital for 3 weeks. It drove me mad in there.

I was already on an Antidepressant, but now I’m on an Anti-Psychotic which treats Schizophrenia and Bipolar, I am really clumsy and get really frustrated easily and have angry outbursts, I am really sensitive and my moods constantly shift and I can love someone one minute and they mean the world to me and the next minute I despise them, I have a fear of abandonment and always have nightmares that I’ll be left alone one day.

I sometimes feel like I am on a mission and I am the only real person in the world and I wonder if people are really alive like me, I know it sounds weird, I feel like I’m not going anywhere and I can pace up and down a room for ages because I do not know what I have to do, my thoughts race and my Mum says I always mess up on my sentences and say things which seem sensible but I am really just very random and the things I say have nothing to do with any situation.

Pictures of people scare me, as does looking in the mirror, I feel like the eyes are staring into my soul and it makes me uncomfortable. I feel like everyone is against me and that I am alone in the world, and I get really obsessive with my religion, I don’t know how to be a normal person and feel like someone controls my thoughts. Am I Schizophrenic? My brother suggested I was and the Anti-Psychotic I’m on is for it and Bipolar?

I recently started going to counselling and they want to do medication evaluation and that’s the only thing I need pa rental permission for. I live with my cousin and she’s 100% against medicating kids, although I am 16 and will be 17 in 3 months.
My mom has bipolar and is on medication and alot of people on my family have been on anti depressants so it’s kind of a family thing.
They want to get me tested to see it i need anti depressants and sleep medication because it takes me 3 or 4 hours to go to sleep part of the time.
My cousin doesn’t want me to have to go through them testing me for different medications to see what works at my age but isn’t it kind of better to find out what medications work at my age so that then I don’t have to go through that as an adult when I have more responsibilities to uphold and since depression occurs multiple times usually shouldn’t I find out now what works for me.
what should i do? how can I get my cousin to say yes?

My father was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when he was 36. I know it is genetic, and I was wondering what are the chances I have it as well? He doesn’t know what side of the family it came from, although his sister has it as well (he is one of four children). I am also one of four. I have been taking anti-depressants on and off since the age of 12 or so, but have been taking prozac consistently for the past year and a half. I love my dad, but I don’t want to be like him. It’s very hard having a father that’s more like an annoying little brother, and the stress of worrying whether he’s manic or suicidal is more than I can bare at times. I am 18 now, and sometimes I’m afraid that in ten years I’m going to be a completely different person. I don’t want to go through as much pain as my dad has, and I don’t want my future children to watch me suffer or inflict any pain upon them.